| | Long day today... S&P 500 was down 2.5% today and my personal account got crushed. I'm learning to deaden my emotions when looking at PnLs, but I was still in an irritable mood by the end of the day.
I went home and ordered with my roommates for delivery from a local sandwich shop. The guy said it would take 45-55 minutes. An hour goes by. I call them. I'm told ten more minutes. Thirty minutes more pass. Still no food. I get really grouchy when I'm hungry, and given that I was already grouchy coming home from work, I was hopping mad at the 90-minute mark. I finally had enough. As my roommates looked on, I called the shop and canceled the order, venting my frustration on them. "Don't even bother sending it here!" I yelled. It was all I could do not to curse them out.
In a twist of irony that only God could provide, the doorbell rang literally five seconds after I hung up. I sheepishly accepted the food as my roommates laughed. As I was paying for the food, the delivery guy's cell phone started ringing, probably the store calling him to tell him not to deliver my food. Thankfully, he didn't answer it.
As we ate in the living room and my grouchiness was placated, my roommates kept imitating me on the phone and saying how they'd never seen me so angry before. I pretended to still be angry about everything, even though inside I was more embarrassed than anything else.
After dinner, as I was taking a shower, I thought about what had happened. I still felt foolish, and banged my head against the bathroom wall a couple of times reliving my diatribe. And I had done it in front of my roommates. What would they think of my faith now? I remembered a quote I had seen somewhere before: "Give grace freely, because you never know when you might need it back." Too late. I was filled with regret. Then God spoke:
"Apologize."
"What?"
"Call them back and apologize."
"What for? I don't even know the guy. Who cares?"
"I do. You made someone else's day more difficult for no good reason. You do this all the time. If you're going to do this all the time, then you should start getting used to going out of your way to apologize."
"I don't know..."
"You WILL call them back and apologize."
"All right, all right..."
Before I could change my mind, towel still wrapped around my waist, I picked up my cell phone and called them back, asking for "the guy that I yelled at." I told him I was sorry that I yelled at him and that it was completely unnecessary. He told me not to worry, that he understood I was hungry but that there were just so many orders they couldn't keep up. He added that next time he would make sure to really do a good job on the food and get it out in time. I thanked him, wished him a good night, and hung up. Instantly, all the regret, embarrassment and anger dissipated.
God's changing me a little every day.
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